I started a new job a couple of months ago Working with children and the skeletons in their closets And boyyyyy, let me tell you, there's an army of them Kids who've had their guardians deny them food and lock them in rooms for long periods of time Kids who've been coke dealers and stabbed people Kids who've had cigarettes snuffed out on their arms before being ***** by their grandpa It seems like every one of them has been sexually assaulted And they're little *******, I mean I can understand why So I put up with their **** and do my best to love and nurture them as much as is professional and appropriate
Because it puts things in perspective I've battled my own skeletons, subdued enough of their osteal pallor to feel preeeetttty much normal Now my only demons come to me while I'm trying to sleep as ringing in my ears ******* tinnitus has been keeping me up, shrieking from nowhere, everywhere around me, incessantly flooding my ear canals
But I went to the doctors today and he rinsed out a tooth sized chunk of wax from my ear and gave me some amoxicillin for my infection And I knew in my mind that it could always be worse People have gone dead, never able to hear their favorite music again In some sick way it brings me relief, putting things in perspective like that So that's what I try to tell these kids But I doubt it helps when your mother allowed you to be pimped out by her boyfriend But it could always be worse You could be the **** in this situation, and one day you would find that sleep won't be your only demon So I find myself wishing that I could take my bottles rinse the wax out of their juvenile ears, but they've heard too much screaming and crying I wonder if their tinnitus will ever go away And just hope, while they're telling me to **** **** and die, that they too will one day know the peace of silence I hope that their demons dont drag them down aallllllll the way to hell, because it could always be worse