The fear of expression

Oh fear
Everytime I saw her
I became scared to talk to her
I became dumb because am scared to tell her how I feel
I know I need her
I know I want her
I know she is the right girl
But how!!, but H̶̲̥̅ΘΨ!!
How will I put the words
I will I say them

I feel so cold to talk to her
I can't breathe whenever she shook my hands
I suffocate each time she says Hi

I rehearse every words that I want to say
But all escape my mind each time I meet her
Because fear is over me
Am scared of what she's going to say
Am scared of the bomb shell she's going to drop right in front of me
I try to tell her how I feel
Yet I can't
I tried but am scared
Words really don't come to me easily

I watch her when she smiles
I watch her when she cries
Yet no courage to say sorry to her
I can't find the way to tell her
All I do is wish am her lover
All I do is wish she is mine
I got this feeling for long yet I keep hiding them because am scared

Everyday I watch her as she comes
Everyday I watch her as she walks away
Everyday am scared to go for what I really wanted because am scared to express my feelings