deal with it. you can’t change anything, help anyone, make people happy... just give up. ****, just **** yourself, end it all. people will miss you, yeah. you’ll make evan worse, maybe drive him to suicide. emma might get into bad habits- back into bad habits. arica... she’ll be you, won’t she? the last resort, becoming what she tried to save. matt says he doesn’t even feel like your friend, would be even do anything if you died? maybe he’d get better without you, not like you guys did anything for each other. nothing good, at least. cacey... maybe they’d just mourn. lilly would- i don’t know. i just don’t... know. kia might learn the truth. if anyone sees this after i die, tell all my friends the truth. tell everyone everything. how i felt, make it known. maybe i’ll write something else for my family.

have a great-*** day, *****
elizabeth matthias