~I try my very best to get along with everyone that I once knew in my whole heart. Sometimes, I don't want to move on just yet. Bit I have to let it go. They just don't know me at all. I just need to breathe. I always get to worry all the time. I just don't know why? My heart always been broken. I have one problem after another.
I just with that I just fix all of my mistakes, but all that the people I once Knew, just blocked me away. It just not going to solve anything. I just wish that their's another way. They just want to shut my out... I just guess that life doesn't matter to me anymore.
A few years ago... Even though it forever. I once knew a girl that she was my best friend that she was a sister to me, At least that I got to talk to her a little bit. I gave her a graduation present a few months ago before she left. Then a while later, she blocked me. I felt so confused and lost I never ever wanted to hurt anyone.
'Sometimes that I always thinking that people are saying to my head in thought like, "Go **** yourself" I don't know why that I thought of that.
I always thinking that I'm always alone in my heart. That people that doesn't understands me anymore. People that I once knew that doesn't know my past stories, They don't know what happened to me.
People breaks promises to me and it hurts a lot. I just don't understand. I just want to get along with everyone that I see.
I just bet that the people that I once knew that won't see this, the ones i knew in my heart. It feels what they are saying to me, "I am glad that I ruin your life and no one cares about you. Go jump off of a cliff... and others that I don't want to say.."
My head been thinking these things over and over and I am sick of this ****!!!! I just don't know why am I here in this world anymore?? My life is here for no reason for what it looks like........
I see why I am still feeling this way.. Thinking of my past is still inside of my head... It just don't want to stop.. I hate this feeling.. It's eating me alive...