I get this feeling...
This tingle throughout my body.
My mind soars.
I feel this constant vibration like i'm being shook in a box,
and the next thing I know, the bell rings.
It sings...
constantly in my ear...
My eyes sting.
Constantly threatening me with tears.
I get this feeling
in my head.
Like someone is talking to me.
If only you all can see...
that these walls are crashing on me.
I get this feeling...
that I am not me.
But I understand now.
My limbs are being pulled by strings.
And It's only when I feel pain, that I am in control.
Because I need to feel that pain...
to be alive.
I need to feel.