remembering
becoming a member again
of society and my family,
they have never left me
and despite all these arms opening to me,
i chose yours, and i continue to choose
the absence of your arms

for better or for worse, i vowed
until a for-worse, turns out to be a for-better
i'll be in your arm's absence

i blame myself
though you do not escape blame
and i can't help but ask strangers
would i ever do this to you?
i can't help but ask
would you ever do this to me?
you can see how the unknowns fester
as i re-member with myself
solitude faked well