Giving your heart back to yourself Isn't what one would expect,
Like a sea of flying butterflies, a bright cheery marriage to oneself celebrated with wine and fancy horodeurves.
It isn't Fireworks and explosive love.
Giving your heart back to yourself after having given it away to the sea of the wild stormy world Is a slow journey, It is like watching one raindrop Slide down the car door window As You the passenger wait for something yet are found here amongst the steady presence beating.
Giving your heart back Is holding yourself unable to sleep at night, it is longing for your own arms, longing for your own kiss, nothing more intimate than this yet being unable to grasp the fullness, the wholeness.
Giving your heart back is missing your family It is wishing you listened when you felt something wasn't right.
It is missing your 5yr old self It is pain It is greiving
Giving your heart back to yourself is Deep breaths and long stretches of silence. It is comfort and desolate bike rides at sunset. It is green and fertile, It is warmth and big mugs of tea. It is Slow and delicious like melting chocolate. It is patience And acceptance. It is aching and laughter. It is messy crying. It is innocence And maturity.
Giving your heart back to where it belongs is not fireworks, it is not a loud display of affection, It is a delicate dance Of dedication.
Giving your heart back to yourself Is the long winded path you know you must take And take alone, it is the bow of commitment and the sigh of release.
Giving your heart back To yourself Is The steady rythm that follows and hums with you gently On this walk, As you hold yourself And slowly make your way home.
Giving your heart back to yourself Is realizing All of the scattered pieces Have been in you all along.