I could really lose myself in you.
There is a moment of reckoning I think I might have shared what I feel with one flick of my eyes to think you hold me in this way I might have been happy once I couldn’t think of the dusk thick moment place both palms on his heart and shove and even though you hurt you do not talk you walk and keep your brow straight line up your chin and then when it is all over there will be a day where I can lay still and be content and finally wrap myself in limbs arms and legs of him him him that him that might have been or might be and this fear that fear your fear my fear that lives breathes and sleeps in the closet of the heart the heart red and engorged see the beat but oh it falters when you close your eyes and blow a labored breath through the O of your mouth

I could really lose myself with you.
Where I take all the dark corners of my mind to make one shifting kaleidoscope of color back and forth between one black and one blue piece and how they dance together is the light that makes the joy music ring out from underneath my tongue how I have strained to hold on to this great piece of me this body that belonged to me and mine alone my mind a static prison I have to love and to hold to cherish forever and then you came along with your sway and suddenly I couldn’t breathe couldn’t bear to hold myself together as I have been and I unraveled into something akin to spinning tops will I ever stop will I ever win or will I only spin on and on until you find a way to finish my song do you hear me blistering for you all of the heat in my fingertips do you sense that when I am near I know you by your voice your step by the way that you breathe I we you me which one which one shall it be I can not decide help me save my pride go on hide until the danger has passed and we can greet each other with a simple hello in the hallways and then life goes back to stable mentality and I am left to ponder why I never go to Central Park on sunny days