i'm being swallowed by guilt and fear and self loathing
the burden of lives i haven't even lived
i try to escape my thoughts by smoking until my face falls off
but i know in 9 days
my head will spin and collapse
and thinking about introducing myself
transforms my insides into cherry blossoms and molten lava
social anxiety
turns my face into a bouquet of flowers
have you felt what its like to walk into a gigantic building you don't know
and its full of strangers
my face lights on fire and fireworks shoot from my eyes
i write ******* nonsense and the people in my life waste their time thinking i'll grow into something better
i deserve to feel lonely all the time