How do you lose something that you never had to begin with?
How do you unlove someone when you never got to love them?
How do you move past something you never got to be apart of?
I almost gazed into your chocolate eyes for too long.
I almost wrapped my arms around your body too tightly.
One more squeeze and my rib cage could’ve collapsed into yours
One more prolonged brush across my cheek, one more moment between our lips and we could’ve danced to the vibration of our pounding sternums
I almost made you laugh too loud. We almost filled a room with too much joy, I almost liked your smile too much.
I could trace those crevices for hours and you could tell me what put them there. We could lie under the covers and create more between kisses
I think you made me smile too much.
I think your goodnight whispers tucked me in too tight
I think that if I use enough blankets, I could still hear them
Maybe if I fall asleep just right, you’ll still be here in the morning
And maybe when we wake, there will be no almosts.
We could hold our bodies too close together, we could sink into one another and maybe we could fall in love.