i just wanted to dance so close to the stage that the dj could spit right in my ******* eye shaking it so loose and hard that people would talk about that guy at the show i wanted to make friends that would remember my name when i bumped into them broad daylight middle of 6th "ALLEN!!!" i wanted my girlfriends hands around my hips kissing my neck and screaming WOOOOOOOOOO
but really
i would have settled i would have settled for something quiet i could cross my legs sip a coffee puff a cigarette and listen intently to some jangley classical guitarist or a professional washboard player or anything other than what i had to hear it wasnt music
instead instead of any of it i trod the streets behind my party alone more or less feet bleeding in search of the elusive "show" i never danced i stood or sat slumped wondering where she was skin crawling for a kiss