why cant i ever be there for them
why am i never there to stop them
she started cutting and i couldnt.. stop her..
my other friend started too
"i just wanted to fit in"
i had a long panic attack on my birthday
fake smiles
i just have to fake it n theyll believe me
"oh im fine"
"im just a bit tired"
"im fine"
it hurts
it hurts so much to know that theyre doing this to themselves
i ******* love them
i love them so much
but i can never... ever... save them..
i couldnt even stop them if i tried
im so stupid..
im such an idiot...
i cant do anything right..
i can never do anything right..
theyd all be happy if i were just.. gone
none of this would happen
none of it
its all because of me..
my fault..
everythings my fault..
i cant cut myself im 4 days clean already..!
my moms coming to visit...
school starts monday
my grandfather might have cancer again...
and- i cant do anything..
i cant help..
i cant take care of them
i cant do ****
im worthless.
why love me anyway?