My life did not fall apart all at once or so suddenly small pieces and fragments began to wear down and be stripped away slowly first the distance between my family grew I was alone before I knew it no longer crossing their minds my body became weary and my thoughts ran slower my love for reading and school faded love for myself declined rapidly then I shed weight and I shed tears remaining tucked away in my home alone locked away with this brain unsure if I want to stay anymore still my questions go unanswered why did they leave where did my mind go where can I find myself again.