have you ever broken down sobbing after so long of being strong?
crumbled to the floor.
hands by your face.
your face scrunches up and you let out that first gasp. you try to be quiet,
but eventually it becomes loud, heart-wrenching sobs.
you cry and cry so much that you can't breathe.
you ask whoever's up there,
"WHY? WHY ME? WHY THIS?
WHY CAN'T I JUST BE DEAD?!"
you say you want to end it all right there,
right then.
you sob, trying to gasp breaths in between.
eventually you completely collapse on the floor,
and you just lay there,
NUMB


Am i the only one that feels that way?
it's never ending.
this worthlessness. i can't shake it.
why the hell can't things change?
it's like i'm never good enough.
like nothing i do is "good enough"
i can't go on like this.
i want to end my life.
this life i'm living is hell.
**save me