Forty-five hundred feet high, a tapestry of sandstone, crimson, and gold covers the late October Smokies. I look out at the valleys and peaks, rocky and vast, like the ones in me. The river is alive. I cast a line and stare at the clear rushing water, wondering if it ever tires, and after three quarters of an hour, an enormous rainbow trout leaps up, startled, curved pointed metal sinking into gasping gills, her thick iridescent skin shining for miles. We gaze at each other as she dies pressed firmly under my palm, and a thousand orange eggs perish with her. The children squeal when I drop her head into the bucket on top of the heads and spines of her relatives. Her babies go in next. This tranquil mountain scene is stained with blood. A red leaf dances past my face, I breathe in the scent of campfire, a Mother and a Murderer– a giver and taker of life– I walk back to the old house to prepare supper.