Mar 2013
A million little ******,
in the flesh right below my ears,
my God I am so scared.
A humming so deep,
right next to my bones,
a begging in my blood,
that really wants to leave.
My God I am so scared.
The logic to my left,
the needs to my right.
What can I do,
But hold myself?
My God I am so scared.
The desperation of my head,
to end my desires.
But if what allow myself today,
I can’t fantasize tomorrow.
It’s a burning so bright,
deep in my soul.
I want to let it out,
it’s growing so old.
How can I not?
It’s such a simple little thing,
a blade in one hand
the other at my side.
Even through this,
my God I am so scared.
in the flesh right below my ears,
my God I am so scared.
A humming so deep,
right next to my bones,
a begging in my blood,
that really wants to leave.
My God I am so scared.
The logic to my left,
the needs to my right.
What can I do,
But hold myself?
My God I am so scared.
The desperation of my head,
to end my desires.
But if what allow myself today,
I can’t fantasize tomorrow.
It’s a burning so bright,
deep in my soul.
I want to let it out,
it’s growing so old.
How can I not?
It’s such a simple little thing,
a blade in one hand
the other at my side.
Even through this,
my God I am so scared.
Yes, a little deep and a bit of a trigger but I really need ways to express these desires because giving in ism't healthy or good. I made a promise that I will keep, but sometimes I still feel the need and it ***** and it burns but I need to not give in. So, yes, it may hurt you all to read but it's better than it would be.
