Lime green envy. Residing in me. I understand it’s ugly. Imprisoning me. In my own insecurities. Constantly believing I’m unworthy. Unworthy to be happy. Unworthy of education. Unworthy of you. And then I see you chatting up my friends. And I’m engulfed in this, Lime green envy. It’s all consuming. Taking over my rationality. Becoming a hulkish version of myself. And It’s certainly isn’t incredible. I know I shouldn’t worry. I know you care about me. But I can’t help but to fall, In this vat of chemicals containing envy. Turning me into something of a villain. And ironically, I’m my own greatest enemy. And ironically, I’m pushing you away. With all this, Lime green envy. Residing in me. And I understand it’s ugly. Imprisoning me. In my own insecurities. Constantly believing I’m unworthy. Unworthy to be happy. Unworthy of education. Unworthy of you. And I can try to blame my past, My family or friends or even you. But I know that I’m truly the one to blame. For no one is forcing me to treat you all so badly. It’s a choice that I make. And I have to deal with my actions. Whether positive or negative. I decide to either be the successor or the victim. So, I’m sorry. Sorry that I’ve let this lime green envy consume me.