with losing weight or
stopping drinking. Misery is
a heavy weight that sits on your chest
from the moment you get up to
the moment you go to bed. You can buy
jewelry – that gives you a high for
a day. You can dress yourself in lacy
******* and bra, but that won’t make it
go. You can  eat a slice of chocolate cake and
wash it down with a milkshake but you're still
the same. There is no “happy pill” like
the doctors try to push on you, some
instant cure that will snap you back from
the depths of agony that you find yourself
drowning in. You need to recharge, but how?
Going outside yourself.  They all say look
within. They don’t know you’ve been
looking into a vacant line and you’ve had it.