the silence is far too heavy between us
i dread to think of the weight my thoughts would bear
my feelings sworn to secrecy
be bare with me
let me read your mind

loving you is easy and impossible
like being aware of my breathing
to the count of ten
heart pounding
all of a flutter
but that doesn’t affect you

open affection is not for you
my expressions are subtle as a lovers blush
capillaries expanding
heat rising
tensions too
punctured by your grimace