I’ve had doubts.
Hoping they weren’t true.
I’ve had doubts.
With you.
It started out awhile ago.
But I didn’t have proof.
At that time.
My mind was to focused on other things.
I should’ve seen.
The clues that came my way.
But love blinded me
And My trust misguided me.
Misguided by your illusions.
Convinced me it’s all a delusion.
And there is no need for suspicion.
Why do I always have to learn these hard lessons?
But I believed you.
Because I wanted to make it work.
Because pulling the band-aid would’ve hurt.
But if I could go back I would’ve ripped if of then.
The moment I found out my son wasn’t actually my kid.
****.
No doubt.
I should’ve listened to my doubts.
Do you understand the pain I felt?
My heart has become a jigsaw.
Don’t you have any guilt?
And my mind has become a see-saw.
Can I ever be rebuilt?
For right now I’m not just at a loss of words.
I’m lost at sea.
But even the sea won’t carry me.
So I’m drowning.
Going deeper to the depths.
As deep and dark as my depression.
This is my new home.
This is where you left me.
So all I have to ask now is...
Are you happy?