Is this goodbye or another break
I cant say
You didn’t give me the chance to speak my mind
You moved your lips for some time and then it was all over
All I remember is seeing you pick up your bags and leave
There was the initial shock
Then tears
And finally numbness
I thought it was the end
The end of everything
This had to be it
There would be no more sleepless nights
Loss of appetite
A permanent smirk where my smile should be
Endless tears when I should really be wiping them away and thinking of a potential bright future
Its not so much a future anymore
Just days and more days
Which stretch out to months then years
I keep on hoping for something big
Something magical which would sweep me off my feet and blow away my problems
Something that will give me hope and remind me that there is life after heartbreak and pain
A kind of life that is worth living
Not something that you read in the newspaper or hear about on the news
One bad decision leading to 10 more and another 10 leading to death
No I want a life filled with thoughts memories and stories that I may tell to the upcoming generations of people
A life surrounded with people I actually want to be with and not pretend to like them because that’s the right thing to do
A life where every day is more of an adventure and not so much just an agenda
I know I have plenty to live for and so much to explore and later understand
But there is no one there
My hands are still cold
Your side of the bed empty
Everything is a show
And my soul feels incomplete