Oh love where do you hide why are you so elusive calling out my name loud all the while?
You catch me tight and never fully grab my hand Sad because he could not give me what I want
Where do you lie my fellow tortured soul Do you cry at night, do you struggle to belong Where are you my lost one my bedroom God my tiny pleasure, my great rock
You will not laugh at my poems and my ache You will not be my shrink - we will laugh the pain away
He saved me once and I saved myself But we could not be, I could not stay I am floating away... Tears gather in my skull Where are you love? You're like a dead limb You're not here, but I feel your loss
Sad because I lost it again And I fear what comes next My well of pain and doubt, my treadmill - do I need to stop? I can't give up - Time, time, time ticks away like a bomb My needs they dissolve but never fully gone
You had to leave I had to let you go of me
And both of them wave me goodbye And I wave goodbye back. It hurts. But this is also release Could not live on the edge of the blade endlessly And whatever comes I embrace now I know things well.
Death is not the end death is the forethought of life PS: You are number one, you blow my mind.