i try my best to just forget
i try to get over and move on
i worked hard to get a good life
i finally have a good home

yet every night i hear it knock
in the silence i can hear the bombs
i see flashes and smoke in the dark
it feels as if i'm back from that terrible start

though try as i might to dream
but no man is truly born to be free
i try so hard to make sense of it all
i am but a prisoner with no walls

i just wish it never happened
i wish it would just stay buried
i pray that i won't be sober to know
the things i did and the things i saw

forever bonded by its chains
that drives any man insane
to the core of its soul shattered
full of horrid trauma and scars

no matter what you try to do
accepting it or forgetting it
you can try to let go of the past
yet the past will never let go of you