In my state of mind I find myself dead
Put me on my knees and fill my head with lead
No I’m not talking bullets I’m talking chemicals
Experiment in my head and watch it explode
I’m my state of mind I’m just another mode
For you to try when you’re bored and all alone
Help end this nightmare for this isn’t my home
I’m stuck in a maze and everyday it changes
I see an exit but it’s always at extreme ranges
So why even bother when every step hurts
I’d die before I got there so bring me a hearse
Because In my state of.. huh where’d that go
Oops give me a sec I think it went really low
I knew I should’ve locked it up sometime ago
My heart hurts my brain and it starts to show
So my mind likes to wander to escape the pain
It’s usually out somewhere out in the rain
Trying to trash the thoughts and feelings
Casting out all of my evil villains
I like my mind it helps me.. oh there you are
It created its own little Hollywood Boulevard
With everyone that hurt me as the big stars
Look there goes me trying to solve everything
There goes me throwing away a wedding ring
There goes me crying and overthinking
I’m by myself in a corner with no sympathy
And here comes everyone else to yell at me
“You weren’t enough and you never will be”
I don’t think you guys should watch anymore
Come over here and let’s go through this door
Welcome to the land of Gabe’s make believe
Where love and positivity just grows on a tree
Oh hey you shut that door please
If something got into here it could be a disease
Everything beyond that door is evil and dark
So let’s just start and play with this tree bark
Because in my state of mind everything’s okay
I just wish you could all stick around and play
It’s about that time again for you guys to go
It’s better for you not to see what I know
I mean hey everything’s alright around here
Just carefully exit out of that door over there
GOODBYE