i hope you never find out that i am praying for you
that God gives you your salvation in small doses.
i never want you to get the satisfaction
that a person can still care about you
God and i have our secrets.
it brings me pleasure to know that i can find solace in helping you indirectly
even if it is unfair to me.
life has not been gentle to me
or kind
but i will forever be soft.
that is how God made me.
my softness will not be used as a punching bag.
i will use it to inspire you.
to show you compassion
even if you never gave it to me.
God and i are praying you’ll give it to yourself.