Today, I got a phone call that would change my life forever. I was beyond excited. But only hours later I would looking at you crying because you didn't want this change. You loved living life in the fast line. You asked me to do something that would tear me apart. This change would pull us apart. When I see you now I put my head down and cry. I'll be doing this all by myself. I can't believe that you would do this. I can't believe that this change ran you away. I wish you would see what you are doing. I want you here. I want you to want this change.