I resent apologising for something so central
to who I am.
and that means something,
because apologising for who I am is what I do best

but this part of me does not feel wrong
or ugly
and I do not want to fix it

I watch the world from the outside.

it is not voyeurism,
I do not lurk or creep
or prey upon the world.

I watch, from the edge of others' experience

because the world is beautiful,
even when it’s not
and people are incredible,
even when they’re broken
and I revel in your joy
and I weep for your sorrow

and I will see you

when you take a breath and step towards your fear
when you blank your face and give selflessness in love

I will watch you dance and twirl
and almost feel the wonder in that moment that you do

and perhaps some things can only be seen fully from the outside.