I’ve learned how it’s like without you and every step has been excruciating some days are easy, quiet, tolerable because distractions are present amidst the unforgiving hustle and bustle of life and I’d welcome anything thrown at me to keep you off my mind and help myself heal —but most days are hard They require patience, tenderness, and strength that I can’t provide myself with you had always kept my head out of the waters and now I’m back to struggling how to breathe and by then it’s just harder to pretend that I’m not constantly dreading a future that is not meant for us to conquer together
But I still hope (and pray and beg) that our paths will cross again when the time is finally right and we are versions of ourselves that can love each other better and I beg, I beg, I beg that we will survive it then