I feel no escape from the demons at war in my head,
I feel no escape from night terrors and teary blindness I awake in.
I feel nothing and everything all at once.

I am haunted grief, loneliness and anxiety,
I have watched roses wilt to ashes and ashes fade to nothingness
I have seen the flicker of passion dissipate between two people,
and ignite in other lovers.

I can hear the screams.
The screams that come from my lips as I hold the sharp shards of what was once me.
wounded I desperately try to scream to see if anyone will save me.

Days fade to months of isolation,  
loneliness grasps my soul like a hungry demon
pain throbs in my chest.

So badly do I wish the hourglass could be flipped.
So badly do I wish I could be carefree and childlike once again.
Those times have come and gone
and now it is just me.