The past is hard to forget,
when you've gone through hell and back.
All the hurt and the pain,
you try to hide it all away.
Pushing it further and further into the back of your brain,
but bottling it all up will just drive you insane.

You start finding new ways to deal with it all,
forever living in denial.
Drinking alcohol to the numb the pain,
taking drugs as a way to escape,
escape the hell that goes on inside of you.
All the while you fall deeper and deeper into a dark and lonely place.
Self-harming for a release,
a temporary fix but the scars on your body make you feel so ashamed.
And now you're filled with self hate,
you feel so isolated because you've pushed everyone you love the most away.
it's a never ending cycle filled with hatred and pain.