Why am I so messed up? That I can hardly talk My tongue moves but Noises don't come out Am I challenged? Against my own self Will the war within me Ever cease to peace Continuously I keep talking But just to myself When will I make my voice heard My past has been horrendous My future bleak In all this circumstances Is my present too Getting weak I need to arise I need to talk I don't know How and where But I need to open up My black heart!