she's not living life
she's not having fun
all of her dreams have shattered
left her with a void too big to fill in.

she has stopped running
she's not laughing anymore
all of her songs can't comfort her no more.
they just remind her how lonely she actually is.

she's planning her own death
she's writing the goodbye notes
hoping that her friends won't be upset
knowing they could never help her, anyway.

she's living life
she's having fun
in her own terms
thinking of the final day
waiting for everything to end.