I can feel the sun on my face
Take CBD pills
Hit a little THC

I can post and get instant gratification
I can get my limbs lean and tan
Drink coffee
Feel the wind lightly caressing me.

I've never encountered so many men
That intentionally did not let themselves
Fixate on me
And mine.

I reach for you only to be met with silence
And I imagine when you reach towards me
There is a ringing of mermaid scales
And it reminds me of when you were in the cave
With another
And never thought to just lend an ear
And tell me so
While still making me feel seen
Loved even.

There is a thirst that goes unheard, unspoken
Sometimes I think we'll never really get along.

Though our eyes and our hearts yearn
Though I'm a drug to your lungs
And you to my mind.

I've resigned myself to being the girl
The girl that dreamt of being your dream
But you couldn't see
You couldn't see
And so now when you feel vocal
We acknowledge
The emptiness that was left behind.

We haven't seen each other in such a
Long time
I know I asked once if you ever cried
And just like everything with you
I'll never really know.

I mean my good will with only good will
Though I know you will never write to me
Flicking your eyes up in that blonde pale way you do
You remind me of the young romantic tragedies
When I was the princess in the cup
In the Alabama sun
I think maybe you liked me because I reminded you of you.

We paint in whistles that we are so different
I fall asleep sometimes remembering the harm you caused
And the way I loved you even still.

You do have a special spot
And I know I you
I think maybe the synergy between us can still exist in peace
And its wild to believe its almost been two years
Since we first met
And I acted like this is more important than it is
And I hope I'm just wrong about that feeling
I hope you think on me more than you'd like to admit

And I hope that someday we can love and respect each other
The way we always secretly have
Even though it means
We are sea and land away.