I wouldn't dare

I sense the ache like it's in the air

I roll my thumb and my index finger together

Like I'm giving it a taste

I shiver

But is it the blowing wind

Or is it cause I'm scared ?

Scared to admit

I'm hurt

Scared to admit

I'm rejected

Scared to admit

You did it

I care about you too much that I wont allow u to do this.

But whatever

I dont care get dressed whatever

Cause it out of my control

How you feel and your soul

So I deny myself

To keep you near

I deny my hurt

And detach my fears

I wont let you hurt me

Cause, Love.

I dont want to Hate you.

So I criminalize my feelings

And put it in a cuff

I feel it in the air

I sense it between my fingers

Or is it between my bones ..?

I dont know if I love you

Cause I wouldnt dare ..

But this ache is too familiar now

Its like it's always been there

I wish I can set it free

And cry

Instead of this already solved mystery

Of truth and self-lies

Of this numbed ache

I wish I could be with you

I wish I could take being without you

I wish I could admit that I love you

But, Love.

But I wouldnt dare..

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