There will always be a knock there's always a new stranger to knock for a conversation for a glimpse of your brain for comfort for a safe place for reassurance for a deal for your heart maybe..? but not all of them is love sober some will knock to find what they've lost for someone like her for an exchange of fake feelings for fake druken words for a touch of lust for a distraction of their mind with yours for visions your brain might not have the colors of for one stroke on your strings, of a song they've played before but is completely new to you.. you might be intrigued, but you shouldn't be I've been knocked knocked at knocked for knocked out but I never let just anyone in.. Or do I? Once upon a new constellation in the sky, in a new side on the moon I've never seen, a new shade of black when staring directly into the sun, that has always been blue and purple.. I walk to the door to knock, and there you were already knocking.. I've been hearing these church bells for a year now, I've been feeling my heartbeat sing along to it, a different knock, a sober knock, a new knock that I couldn't resist opening the door for, hell I opened all the doors and all the windows for, I opened my heart, I kept my mind open, I was completely and utterly open and I sang along. But I knew it was bad, I felt fear and fear and whole lotta fear, but nothing could stop me because you're here with me and you are singing along, you were singing along.. Where did I go wrong? I keep forgetting people can have a change of heart, they change their mind, everything changes in a short period of time and it makes my lungs so tight and my knees weak.. because it's never my change of heart. It's never me. I don't know what the **** is wrong with me but I know that it's time for me to knock on other doors.. because I am not accepting new visitors I'm knocking on a door.. for love that I know doesn't exist for reassurance for sweet little lies that makes me smile for the final exam of all the lessons I learned