If only you knew how many laps it would take to make my escape Lost in my minds maze I was trapped in dark days Lost in countless ways
Time after time Do you know how many times I have died while alive?
It's not easy having this beautiful mind
To see nothing but beauty in deranged miracles
They luminate through my eyes
To outsmart my own Devil I beat me at my own game Now I wear this ****** crown Watching myself I go down on my knees Hear how I sing my own praises Loving myself as I embrace my wicked ways
Backwards I lit my morning cigarette Filter for my silent mouth Watch how it ignites Spewing toxic blue flames straight out of Hell
Still I’ll inhale
Ill be the first to admit I've done some pretty ****** up ****
All that time wasted Incarcerated Intoxicated Drugged out Seduced Body ****** Bruised and Broken Over and over Praying for the day it or I would end Still can’t recall all the nights turned to days turned to weeks no sleep on repeat Stealing and Dealing Forget to keep dreaming
Yet here I am Still standing Still inhailing my ******* cigarette
My only regret Was falling in love with the right man After he was gone
Only thing left Date Year Numbers finalizing Timing his final breath
Now The Ashes are everywhere The only truth in love
My cigarettes death
1.6.
Radio playing Times Timeless hit-list
If I could turn back my all-time regret
Was in a moment No sooner or later no matter where everything and everyone I asked impossible questions
Why me? What happened? Or didn't After we had met
In a restricted hall We tried so hard To not be so late The clock kept trying to tell me Yet I blamed it For believing my lies I was blind from not hearing the warning from time In how we would both become prisoners Forced to stare back at crumbling walls
Counting every **** day Watching every **** tick Fabrication of possible ways
My lists on lists turned to regret after regret The only truth in love
My cigarettes death
How I would wish for words so I could pray I can't say Make me forget No I never I won't I don't even smoke Why did I ask
“So what’s your name”
The look you would give me while giving to you In you I had my first regret That would lead to you lightning me up that last cigarette
Now the last thing my only thing left I’m smoking all alone Won’t be hearing you say my name anymore
But I won’t ever regret how you had... that crave and because of me You could get a spark off a dead lighter Trick is you gotta put two dead ones together
*** Death Celebration Stress
Always you'll see me smoking
I need you not these stale ashes So tell me again just how bad you need another ******* cigarette