20.

When I was born
was long before
Christ

I’ll live
forever
A lot longer
then these
capital
lies

I am a timeless widow

Who grew old
in circles
of my
forgotten divine

I once was a
captive
like a clock
on a shelf

Empress of wild Blue Bells
Call me a daughter of Titans

Thiea herself
blessed me
with her
light
  
When I was
Athena
I committed
first ****

My children
Cain and Able
both died by
suicide

So don’t be
a fool
and
give me
your heart

This world
has
made me
starve

I’m hungry
Take it    
back

I’ll eat your
heart
for a
bedtime snack

21.

When I was
that
community ****
The one your
husband
wants to ****

The *****
who’s your
best friend
To ****
that ****
up

See why my head
is a consistent
battlefield?

The minute I
wake up
I’m already
counting
the casualties

When I am
asleep
you haunt my
dreams

When you
realize
you belong
to me

I won’t stop
fluttering
your waking
thoughts

When we reach
our next
life
we both become
butterflies

With two
broken wings
Both too
hurt to
fly

22.

When you
want to
come find
me

I’ll still be
playing
for keeps

Still enjoying
some forbidden
luxuries

Got nothing
left
to sell
Done with
my tricks
at heavens
stairwell
    
When you
have had
all that
I had

When you
lose
everything
I had
to lose

I purposely
lost
everything                        
I could

I knew
it was the
only        
way I could
find you

When you
know
the difference
of what is
lost
and what it is
to lose

Between
what it is
to lust
and what
it is to
love

To forgive
you must forgive
yourself

Then you
will see


The loneliness
you feel
is a lonely
I feel too

23.

When I’m
sitting
in the back room

Walk through
Back door
Go down
Bottom floor

You can
find me
there
Call it my
Rabbit hole

After I make
the cover of
The
Rolling Stone
There I’ll be
doing lines
off my cover
of Vanity Fair

So put me
on a poster
Make it
my grave
Pin me
on your
ceiling
Maybe this
time
I’ll behave

Late at night
when you
can’t fall
asleep

Stuck in
your bed
A prisoner
in your
head
Look up
and say
your sweet
******* prayers

You’re staring
at a woman
That gives
a nightmare
a scare

24.

When I was
standing
outside that
downtown
burlesque

I was standing
away
didn’t want
to take
no part
of that crowd

I was smoking
a
cigarette

When I met
the strangest
man
more strange
then
any man
I had ever
met

He was
selling
treasures
he found
in the
trash

There in his
pocket
he pulled
out
a worn
out
crumpled  
piece of
paper

That’s when
I got
first glance
at Gods
mysterious
plan

Now if
the day
were
to ever come
and you
were
to meet
a sinner
as good
as me

On the calendar
mark that
day down

Make that
the day
you met a
Saint
with no
crown


25.

When I
do die
don’t bury
me
at all

Nail me down
to the cross
Crucifix burnt
to a crisp
Let my ashes
spread
in the wind

Rest of your
days
are spent
breathing me
in

When I
grow up
I want to be
the White
Lilacs
you plant

Cuz babe
me and you
isn’t just
meant to be
or
suppose to be
everyday
spent away
from you
is a missed
shot
at destiny

Do you know
how long
I held up
my gun?

Semi automatic
pointed
at demonic
heads

The 12 gage
I used
to persuade
the Angels
to let me
have you

The amount
I paid
in
the ransom
of fate

Make no
mistake
of my faith

Testing my
patience
is how
you **** me
too