While I never thought of Self inflicted scars and the Silvery afterthoughts that Always seem to follow,
I did think quite a bit about pain.
Pain that drowns, consumes, Baffles, and clouds, Until you aren’t your mind and Your mind isn’t you And the disconnect is concerning.
Sometimes this pain Manifested in this or that way. Mostly it was a fog In which my eyes couldn’t see Ears couldn’t hear I wasn’t human I wasn’t me I just was.
The flickering exit light usually shown through This fog but I never Had the energy To take the running leap It required.
While depression Is familiar to me Like a middle school friend Now gone, I sometimes miss The warning signs And then I’m Catatonic.