I can not find the off button,
I can not stop the madness of the mind.
The thoughts come and stay like relatives,
they replay and replay their little games in my head
and change up the rules frequently so I can never fully learn to play.
Like a military officer they have to constantly outrank me,
and show me who is in command.
They lie to me and make me think that there is peace on the other side of the hill.
Just one more year and then you'll be happy,
lose just a few more pounds and then you'll be OK.
Ride a thousand miles more this year and you can cheat death.
Rearrange the events in your life for this person and they will love you.
Make this amount of money and you can have a day off.
They lie to me, these voices.
There isn't anything out there,
there isn't anything on the other side.
How insane it is to think that they know what is going on.
How incredible it is that I can look at these lying voices and see the truth.
For I can not fight it, I can not turn it off.
I must accept their insanity..... so I can remain sane.