I avoid you everywhere I go
I see you on other people’s faces, reminding me that you're tattooed to my heart
Trying to touch my soul and take the few things that make me happy away
You present yourself at the bottom rim of every bottle
And to run away from you, I get another before I get to the bottom
Like a natural disaster, you whirl your way into my vision
Every thought I think
Every touch I feel
Every chemical I taste
I try to forget you
But you creep into my every emotion
Disrupting my every action
Spoiling my fun
In fact, spoiling everyone’s fun
You demand attention
Like you need me to survive, to thrive
So you explore my dreams, looking for a ways to manifest yourself
You want to leave me feeling drenched in loneliness
But I refuse! I will fight you with my last smile
I will stand strong
I will find a way to diminish you
To take you out of my soul
Out of the souls of the people I love
I will not stop even when you beg for mercy
The mercy that you didn’t show me when you scarred me with pain
You will feel the pain I felt
When I saw others feeling joy
The pain you left me feeling when you extracted every piece of my heart from inside my chest .
You will not make me feel ...
feel like this again