If I combined every girl I’ve ever loved into one holy entity I'd eat quesadillas with her in bookstores on Sunday mornings drunk off $7 pink moscato I'd wink at her from across the room during sorority recruitment and we'd sneak away in her red mustang After class, I’d pass notes to her from 8,000 miles away In airports, she’d try to bargain with the gate agents while holding my hand and her first class ticket I’d kiss her through her car window, but be too afraid to hold her hand while I’m driving We’d sneak around, be everyone’s favourite couple, and I'd think maybe **** won't hit the fan this time Distance would mean nothing because we were never together Distance would be crushing because we were never apart Her hair would get tangled in pink dye and I’d find it in my shower She’d kiss my forehead but be too short to reach We wouldn’t have any boundaries, but somehow, we’d cross them We’d get too carried away and go to Vegas to get married and come back to high school with our mothers’ opal rings We’d be 19 in Lexington at a grocery store buying pineapple juice to mix with alcohol that she’d be old enough to legally buy on her own Her dad would buy us wine to drink in a kitchen without a table but with immaculately clean floors We’d talk about girls that broke our hearts and girls we wish we could have while naked in her dorm room We’d talk about how we’re the only ones for each other Six months in and in love 3 years in and deciding we took it too far One month since we separated and dizzy on the bathroom floor