old coffee coarses through me can’t feel a heartbeat going too quick to pick up a pulse a sign of life a drug yet a luxury -integrity- prosperity of humanity and you have none while you continue to slander my name my name being mentioned in rooms i’ve never stepped in
without my control, a once blank canvas would soon be used as a form of blame and through it peace in you- preconceived notions are drawn in the minds of associates and strangers better than an aged painter in the studio he’s only ever known yet this painter is blindfolded while this oblivious painter intently tunes in to sympathize with the selective truths you dispose ‘how could she??’ they say
beautiful in an unconventional way for you to teach them what they don’t want to be whilst they choose what to hear words sifted once again like the selection of the finest grain rejects strawn amongst the boulder you were once beautiful a sweet dandelion left to a stem with a rigid bulb at the top not hideous just no longer wished upon
unfortunately
there’s no lights in this room just brushes sprawled all out on the rug with a ray of sunkissed light coming through the duvets- it’s a bother but you bring it up when others do used to be the highlight of the room but now just something that reluctantly grew on you you want the dark but i only wish light amongst you past lover
you continue to lead- incite fine strokes in them for my self portrait for better or worse i refuse to recognize for myself using colors i’d never think you’d use- their masterpiece being guided by your bitter words i blamed myself for an instant- something you’d never do leading me to believe that your heart never was truly pure when i was with you