I think death is the most beautiful thing there is,
The release of all worries,
All pain,
The burden of living a life with an unknown meaning,
Constantly battling to maintain relationships with people,
To make sure they're okay,
Make sure I'm okay,
I'm never okay,
So if I died tonight,
I guess I wouldn't be so upset,
I might actually be okay,
Because these are the most ****** up thoughts of all,
Ones where I have to decide who to hurt,
Who's emotions are more valuable,
Mine or yours,
So please God,
If you're real,
**** me now,
Because I'm too scared to do it myself,
And I'm too tired from carrying the weight of this world in my sleepy eyelids.