Feb 2013
As I sit here writing,
so many different things are flowing through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel humiliated, at the same time very gullible.
I feel I should have taken the signs and ran all the way with them, other than contemplating.
Hoping that there would be a change.
They say you learn from your mistakes,
but I believe you have to make the same mistake a couple of times to actually learn from it.
You need to see and realize what you're doing wrong.
Sometimes you tend to blame the wrong things as the cause of your problems.
You say maybe if this one thing was different, everything would be perfect.
Some find it hard to face reality, and just realize the situation you've been trying to make right this whole tine was just not meant to be.
As I sit here writing,
So many different things are going through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel let down, at the same time angry.
I feel I should have taken the signs and ran all the way with them, other than contemplating.
Hoping that there would be a change.
I hate being angry.
Its not a feeling that excites me.
Not anyone at that.
But at the same time, it's an emotion that we all come across a lot.
I let little things get to me and stick.
They tell me to let things go and to just flow.
But as they say, things are better said than done.
The feeling you feel when you feel let down is dissappointment.
Not so much to the person or object that has let you down,
but more so, yourself.
You're dissappointed that you let your guard down.
Then it came back to bite you in your ****.
Then when you're let down over and over again,
you start to have trust issues.
Which is enough to drive you crazy.
As I sit here writing,
so many different things are flowing through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel calm, at the same time collected.
Because even though I didn't take the signs and run all the way with them, I still feel that I've learned.
I feel a sense of accomplishment and achievement.
I'm not blaming anyone or anything.
Everything happens for a reason.
That is what I believe.
So as I hold my head up high,
I smile at everyone and everything that has caused me to feel humiliated, gullible, and angry,
because it has all taught me something and gave me an understanding.
And it has lead me to a journey of no worries and happiness.
Thank You!
so many different things are flowing through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel humiliated, at the same time very gullible.
I feel I should have taken the signs and ran all the way with them, other than contemplating.
Hoping that there would be a change.
They say you learn from your mistakes,
but I believe you have to make the same mistake a couple of times to actually learn from it.
You need to see and realize what you're doing wrong.
Sometimes you tend to blame the wrong things as the cause of your problems.
You say maybe if this one thing was different, everything would be perfect.
Some find it hard to face reality, and just realize the situation you've been trying to make right this whole tine was just not meant to be.
As I sit here writing,
So many different things are going through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel let down, at the same time angry.
I feel I should have taken the signs and ran all the way with them, other than contemplating.
Hoping that there would be a change.
I hate being angry.
Its not a feeling that excites me.
Not anyone at that.
But at the same time, it's an emotion that we all come across a lot.
I let little things get to me and stick.
They tell me to let things go and to just flow.
But as they say, things are better said than done.
The feeling you feel when you feel let down is dissappointment.
Not so much to the person or object that has let you down,
but more so, yourself.
You're dissappointed that you let your guard down.
Then it came back to bite you in your ****.
Then when you're let down over and over again,
you start to have trust issues.
Which is enough to drive you crazy.
As I sit here writing,
so many different things are flowing through my head.
So many different emotions.
I feel calm, at the same time collected.
Because even though I didn't take the signs and run all the way with them, I still feel that I've learned.
I feel a sense of accomplishment and achievement.
I'm not blaming anyone or anything.
Everything happens for a reason.
That is what I believe.
So as I hold my head up high,
I smile at everyone and everything that has caused me to feel humiliated, gullible, and angry,
because it has all taught me something and gave me an understanding.
And it has lead me to a journey of no worries and happiness.
Thank You!
