Subtle lips drown sinking ships but sometimes things have to stay concealed
I am trying to keep the peace and I'm trying not to say anything that I'll regret but I can't quite swallow these words and they're beginning to burn being stuck in my throat for so long.
I think that you deserve to know just how wonderful you are but maybe while she's holding you in her arms isn't the best time to tell you.
I say that I want the best for you and that I want you to be happy but I just can't shake the thought that you seemed happier with me than you are with her but maybe you're just trying to spare my feelings.
I'm trying to read your mind but it's hard with so much distance between us
and I stay awake at night wondering if there are words burning your throat that keep you awake too or if they're only stuck in mine.
I guess I should apologize for the way that I'm coming across because maybe my intentions aren't clear.
I keep wondering if I've made all of this up.
I keep wondering if there ever even was an us
but I know that I miss us.
One thing I'm clear about is that you and I are a story that people spend their entire lives searching for.
She might be there with you but I promise that I can hold your heart tighter than she has ever held your hand.
I know that you've been trembling lately and feeling like you might collapse and I know that you've been trying to keep it all together and so it makes sense that you would need her to hold you to keep all of your pieces in place but I need you to know that even if you break, I will be there to help you pick up those beautiful pieces and create a life that's new.
I don't want to disrespect her and I'm not trying to push her aside but I'm just telling you that people have searched lifetimes for what you and I have found effortlessly.
Even after we were apart, the stars still led us home.
The constellations printed a map for us that led us back to one another and I don't think they did it on accident,
I don't believe it was a mistake.
We have always shared the night together and I can't think it's a coincidence that when the rest of the world is dark and quiet, you and I come alive with one another.
You feel so at home in my love and I feel so safe within your promises.
I wonder if she knows about me.
I wonder if she knows about the nights we used to spend together.
We were so close and yet the distance between us was thousands of miles.
I sometimes wonder if she feels distant to you but yet I feel so close still.
There are times I wonder if us coming back together reminds you if what love is supposed to feel like
but I guess I shouldn't be getting ahead of myself.
I shouldn't keep going.
I need to stop now before these words in my throat emerge and spill out of me and you know the depth of the palace you built inside of my heart and mind.