The scenarios that play out in my mind are enough to send someone crazy
Not because they are so far-fetched, but because they are drenched in reality.
I see the negative possibilities and I wonder if I ought to hide,
You may never know all the fears that lurk behind my smile.

As I step into uncharted territory, behind the walls that I've built before,
They no longer serve their purpose; they cannot keep you out anymore.
Defenses lose their strength as you lose yourself in me,
This has become your home...I have given you the key.

And everything they said to fear...cold hearts made me believe,
"Everyone wants something...people enjoy others' misery.
They'll come and observe, and take everything you have,
Then leave you broken and lonely...just a shell of a man."

Wary now...for letting you in...but too afraid to let you go,
Your companionship means so much to me; it's all I've ever known.
So long to build, so long to trust...so long to get us here,
Could all be lost and damaged with a single thought or fear.

Of old experiences long gone and well intended advice,
The darkness that plagues my mind...the smoke that threatens to distort your light.
I'm at their mercy, though I'm trying desperately to shut that door,
because I can't take it any longer; *I can't stand this feeling anymore.