Once upon a lifetime, it seems,
God presented you to me
at one of my lowest times.
I felt like I did not deserve you,
that you were too good to be with
a damaged soul such as myself.
I realize how seriously mistaken I was.

It has taken me many years
to become the woman I am today.
Years of realization that what I give
is what I should expect to receive.
But now, it is too late to say that
I am sorry for the biggest mistake
I have made in quite some time.

You have moved on,
and I am now stuck
in thoughts of what could have been.
Thoughts of how it would feel
to be in your arms again,
to comfort me in my weakest moments.
Thoughts of your lips pressed to mine,
to show me how me how much I mean to you.
Thoughts of our eyes gazing into each other’s,
to subtlety profess your deepest adoration for me.  

What a fool I was
to let you slip away so easily.
Now I am left with the memories
of our brief time together.
I am now left with the "what if’s."
If only I had chosen differently.

I do not know how to move past this.
Will I ever be able to fully let you go?
Despite all of the questions that overwhelm me
about the past, I just know that
you will remain in my heart, always.  
If one day our paths happen to cross again,
I will definitely choose differently.  

Vicki A. Zinn

2010