I have a question
And although you don’t have to answer
I wish you well, as honest as possible
....
The other night when I said that you friend zoned me
You said that’s not true
You said that I was much more but it’s just hard
....
Before I continue, I have another question
Going back to when you told me about you and her for the first time
You said that you didn’t know that I felt that way about you...
Why did you say that...
....
back to before, when you said that I was more than a best friend but it’s hard
What’s really going on.
How do you really feel.?

Yea... it wouldn’t be like this for me though if she would just be honest with me. She has me going in circles and I wanna question it but I know how that’s gonna go and I’d rather she just be cryptic than for me to catch her in lies every time because she refuses to tell me the truth. This isn’t one-sided and I know it isn’t but I just need to know the other side to the story because for the longest time now I’ve loved her in real life based off of a perfect life that I’ve created in my head and it only corresponds in my head. My heart genuinely loves her but once my head comes out of the clouds it’s heartbreaking to know that she doesn’t love me back. But can I really say that when I don’t really know. Her words say that she does and some of actions as well but not all of them so there’s no way I can truly be sure of her words can I...? I’d hate to think she’s playing with me because she knows what I want and she likes the attention