As I lay here in bed, my mind buzzed,
I think of how ****** up my world has become.
All because of me.
I feel trapped inside my body,
no escape.
I haven't eaten for days now,
my stomach is dead just like the rest of me.
I feel unwanted,
of course I would feel that way!
I'm useless,
a **** up,
stupid.
No one would ever want to be around someone like me..
I wouldn't want to be around someone like me either.
I have no more emotion,
trapped inside my heart,
which is slowly fading away...
Could I get better?
Maybe be more social,
smile and laugh like others,
wear bright colors,
be normal.
As I lay here in bed, my mind still buzzed,
I wish to die.
Be a free spirit of no remorse,
no pain,
no worries..
I wish it was ALL gone.
No remembrance of the past tragedies that have gone by,
I just wish it would all disapear in a gust of wind.
Wish there was ..
No tomorrow.