Dear First Love,
When it comes down to it,
I would still do anything for you.

I would still throw down my life,
And give up everything,
If you asked me to.

I will always love you,
No matter if you ever loved me but
Part of me thinks you did, otherwise
I don't think you would've cried twice,
And honestly,
I don't really know what I'm doing without you
By my side.

Dear first love,
I honestly want to scream “*******”
At the top of my lungs
Because you made a habit
Of using me for nothing but your entertainment.

You would disappear for months at a time,
At one point, even a few years,
And would only text because you were lonely.
Because I was an outlet that you knew I would fall into
Your arms time and time again.

Dear first love,
I am finally standing up to you.
I am finally not letting you take advantage of me.
I am finally being strong enough to let you go,
Because being away from you, fully, 100%
Made me realize
I really don’t need you.

Dear first love?
*******.